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Or maybe I am just writing this to remind me. Watching House on t.v. (while curled up on my bed under a blanket unable/unwilling to get up), its the episode where Wilson's girlfriend dies in the bus crash. House and Amy(?) are sitting on the bus after her death, talking. She is telling him he must get off the bus, go back to living, and he says..but it doesn't hurt here. Oh God, how I understand that line. Its why I am still in bed at 11:00 a.m. Its why I am not working. Alone, just me, no judgments, no expectations - it doesn't hurt here. I don't have to think or work to survive. I can just be still. Is it why I long for Heaven? I do. I long to be pain free. I long for it. I LONG to not hurt anymore.

It doesn't hurt here. It doesn't hurt here. It doesn't hurt here.